Life in a Honeycomb

Dear Diary...

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 21:17:22 GMT

I havn't written in here in a long time... mostly because I think online journals are dumb. But I really need to write this stuff out before I explode, and I can't find my real diary. erg. I figure, no-one I know still reads this thing anyway, so whatever.

It all started after christmas vacation.. well, a long time before that really, but this is where the problems started to arise...
I was feeling particularly crappy about how I look (I've gained about 15 pounds since college started, brining me up to 150...) and Mike found me crying about it. When I told him what was wrong, all he had to say was "I know it sounds mean, and I hate myself for even thinking this way, but I'm not taking back the fact that I said what my grandpa said to my grandma; Don't get fat."
Of course, this got me even more depressed about it. Now I know that he doesn't like the way I look. That kept be depressed for a good month or two, and all I could really do was non-thinking things... like making supper and cleaning. I couldn't keep my mind on homework or anything else. My grades went to shit, and they're still crap.
When I finaly decided to boot myself out of my slump, I got more work done, but then BAM. What happens? Positive pregnancy test.
Don't get me wrong, I want this. I'm just not sure I'm ready for it. I mean, raising a kid? I'm still a kid myself! I'm only 19, going on 20!
And it's creating so many problems for Mike and I... We have to make sure to get ourself settled in Montreal with jobs before October, when baby gets here. And I've come to the conclusion that Mike (and his brother... and I'm pretty sure his parents, too) think I'm completely naive and slightly retarded. Everytime I've tried to help with housing\apartment finds, mortgage ideas, or anything of large importance, I'm treated like I don't know how it works. Mike's been going through all sorts of options with his mum, but I'm never told about them until the decision is made.
I'm not sure about you, but I would think that as his cohort, I'd have SOME say in our life choices...
So now I'm back to depression and incapability of concentrating on anything other than cooking and reading.
Of course, I'll have to mention that Mike HAS been taking care of me, pregnancy-wise. I've been nauseous 24\7, and have puked up my fair share of bodily juices... He hasn't really complained much about it.

Last night is what really made me crack though... Niagara Falls came plunging in. Came home after class at 11, as usual, but Mike was staying at school a while to get some school work done. Ok, *thumbs up* go get 'em, Tiger. So I figured I'd make him something good for supper to come home to, since he's usualy dead tired after school. So I took out some chicken thighs and baked them up in a funky onion-BBQ-garlic-butter sauce. Thing is, I thought there were 12 pieces in the pack I unthawed, but they were doubled up on top of each other and there was 24 O.O. They were already defrosted, so I made them all. Dan and Richelle are always here, so I figured it couldn't hurt, they'd eat some too (With some left overs left for lunch tomorrow. perfect :).
I did some dishes and some cleaning in my room while I defrosted the chicken and waited for it to cook. By the time they were done, it was almost 10pm. Mike still wasn't home. I wasn't feeling too great anyway, so I went upstairs to read until he got here. He couldn't get home much later now, school closes at 11.
I fell asleep reading. He came in the room at 1AM telling me I'd made WAY too much chicken, that I'd left it out on the counter, and to start using common sense.
ouch... That hurt just a bit...
He came to bed for a while and just laid there ignoring me while I cried.
Today, he slept in past 3pm, and when I finaly came in to ask if he was getting up, he just started telling me he could sleep all day since HE's been doing the packing and cleaning with his brother downstairs (the house is for sale start april 30th). When I said I'd been doing homework all day, he just looked at me and asked "did you get any cleaning done?". When I said no, he just scoffed and got out of bed.
... yes, I cried again when he left the room. And now I'm down here, typing away...

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Krawl beyond the Klaws of HELL (Coming soon to a DeviantArt near you.)

Fri, 26 May 2006 13:01:12 GMT

Good Bloody Morning to you too, Dad. *glares*

Dad can be the most self-centered, curse-wielding bastard in all the known levels of Hell when things aren't going 100% the way HE wants them.
The electrician is supposed to be here later today to fix the crappy job the original electrician had done. Dad barged into my room at 8:45 in the bloody AM yelling about me needing to "move my fucking stuff so he can work on the plugs". K.. first off da, you don't need to yell, my ears are perfectly well tuned when I'm having a fucking heart attack. Secondly, I sleep half naked, it's called KNOCKING. And, just for shits: Thirdly, nobody told me one of the electrical problems was in every plugin in MY room, so forgive me for not instinctively rearanging my furniture into a pile in the middle of the room.
I work the bloody night shift. He could have called and told me to do this BEFORE I went to work. No, he had to come into my room yelling and cursing about me not moving fast enough to move my shit.

I can't wait to Krawl beyond the Klaws of HELL!

My kitty is a Baka Neko XD

Mon, 22 May 2006 03:43:51 GMT

I made a yummy desert made of vanilla pudding and strawberry sauce... Ali wanted to try some. So I let her lick my cup when I was done... She liked it so much.. well, the photos speak for themselves XD.

OMFG!

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 05:46:11 GMT

OMG! All the crazy crap going on in my life was erased and forgotten for twenty minutes tonight! My and my buddy Paul noticed there was a bright moon out, so when we got to my place, we got out of the van and took a look. Then Paul noticed something colorful behind the house, so we went around and BAM! Brightest Northern Lights I've seen in YEARS!!! So we watched for a while. It would come and go, every color of the rainbow. For the past years, Northern Lights were only greenish and blueish, maybe a little yellow. But these were bright and colorful! Pinks and purples, oranges, reds... all rainbow colors! And they danced! Oh wow! It was like thousands of fairies in the sky! *dies* Then, when I was looking at a really nice bright part with a little empty spot in the middle, a shooting star went by! Of course, I made a wish, but I can't tell what it is! =>.>=.

This was the most magical night I've experience in YEARS! I felt like a little girl again! ^-^

Mandy's happy now =^.^=

Layers of my life... (Got from Snaps)

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 18:06:51 GMT

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Amanda "Mandy" Tambeau
Birth date: Sept 20th, 1987. I expect many gifts :P
Location: Timmins, ON. Soon to be Gatineau, QC
Eye Color: Blueish-grey. Depends on what color shirt I have.
Hair Color: Natural, light brown. Right now it's brown with orangy-gold highlights.
Righty or Lefty: Lefty. The other hand is senile and would sooner combust spontaneously than comply with my wishes.
Zodiac Sign: Virgo. *winks* Yeah, that's right.
Chinese Zodiac: Rabbit. I multiply ;)

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: French and English. As oposite as I can be.
What Shoes Did You Wear Today: um... my fuzzy rainbow slippers :P
Your perfect pizza: Pepperoni, Hawaian with extra cheese and stuffed crust!!!
Goal you'd like to achieve: To make it in the world of Animation ^-^

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your most overused phrase: "For the love of all things holy to you..." and "Thank you for calling Sprint together with Nextel, my name is Amanda. May I have your first and last name please?"
Your thoughts first waking up: "Hey kitties!" (I have two devil cats that sleep in my room. Somehow they've figured out how to open the damn door >.<)
Your best physical feature: My eyes maybe?
Your bedtime: Usualy around 2:30 to 3:30 AM.

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi. Coke is evil.
McDonald's or Burger King: Neither. Fast food is EVIL TOO!
Single or group dates: hmm... Single. Unless there's some kind of friends get together and we're all not single.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Ewww...
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate ice cream! Vanilla cake! yuuuummm
Cappuccino or coffee: Yuck. and yuckier.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: Not if the gods themselves offered it to me.
Cuss: Fucking right.
Sing: Often enough. My voice sucks though. You've been warned :P
Take a shower: I should hope so! I'd prefer a nice hot bubbly bath though. Preferably with a certain someone ;)
Think you've been in love:I know I am!
Like(d) high school: Most of it was horrible, but grade 12 was better. Actualy had some good friends that year ^-^
Want to get married: Of course!
Believe in yourself: Not very often. Depends on the situation I guess.
Get motion sickness: Yes... it sucks.
Think you're a health freak: Naw... Health is for healthy people.
Get along with your parents: Like everyone else I suppose. Not the best of companions, but we love each other ^-^
Like thunderstorms: Oh yes. They're best when shared with a friend ^-^
Play an instrument: Piano, flute, clarinet, xylophone.

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Smoked: *glares*
Been to the mall: Sadly, yes.
Been on stage: Yes >.<
Eaten Sushi: Yes. And I LOVED it! *makes kitty face* Fish fish fish fish....
Been dumped: nope. I do the dumping around here.
Gone skating: yup
Gone skinny dipping: Nope, but I'll eventualy drag a friend or two to do it.
Dyed your hair: yes >.<
Stolen anything: A pez tube when I was about 4.

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Nope.
Gotten beaten up: Yes. Many times. My score is one. Enemy, 30 something.
Changed who you were to fit in: Naw. But sometimes I wish I had.

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be married: 25 sounds like a good age ^-^
Numbers of Children: two, maybe three.
How do you want to die: Anything but old age.
What do you want to be when you grow up: Grown up? I'll never grow up! I'm going to be an artist! Artists don't grow up! It's bad for business!
What country would you most like to visit: England. Japan (only the wilds, not the cities.)

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color?: Blue
Best hair color?: Black. Definetaly black.
Short or long hair: Depends on the guy. Preferably long though.
Height: Taller than me. Wich leaves that space wide open.
Best first date location: An Island in the sky ;)
Articles of clothing: Whatever. Anything but a dress :P

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people I can trust: 3.
Number of CD's I own: Maybe about a dozen music CDs... three or four DVDs.
Number of piercings: two. One in each ear.
Number of tattoos: None. Unless you count the ink drawings i do on my wrists...
Number of times been on T.V: None that I'm aware of.
Number of scars on my body: Too many to count. The most important one lies on the inside.
Number of things in my past that I regret: Many things. More than a hundred. One strikes me the most. A word of caution: Never take a shortcut at night alone in your PJs.

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Wed, 12 Apr 2006 17:37:38 GMT

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Wed, 12 Apr 2006 17:32:17 GMT

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Wed, 12 Apr 2006 17:20:57 GMT

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Feeling Insignificant

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 18:51:49 GMT

I think I might be depressed... I've got so much to do, so little time to do it... I miss my friends... People have been ignoring me at work, or maybe I'm not noticeable.

I've got a list of things to do a mile long; portfolio drawings, 500 word scene for demo, mini-autobiography, school program contract, packing, work...
People ignore my existance or give me weird looks at work. I used to be able to make people smile and laugh, but now for some reason I get these "you're fucked up" looks, or they just ignore the fact that I said anything at all... The fact that I sound like a retard whenever I try to have a conversation doesn't help me much.
I miss my friends... Mike, Snaps, Courtney, Tina... I can never see them, either because they're away in college or too busy.

I miss my old life!

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Tue, 11 Apr 2006 17:52:46 GMT

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1) Does arctic_fox_yuki know patience_mcgee? Very well >XD
2) How long would andarta_86 dating mactabilis last? Apparently, six months :P
3) What is mactabilis's favorite color? I can't believe I don't know this O.o
4) What would patience_mcgee think of andarta_86? Well, they ARE friends.. I think.
5) Is arctic_fox_yuki in a relationship? Nope. Unless he's hiding something =>.>=
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18) What video game does patience_mcgee remind you of? heh... Game Girl Advance?
19) Do arctic_fox_yuki and mactabilis go to the same school? They used to...
20) Have you flirted with mactabilis? Oh yes :P
21) Where did you first meet patience_mcgee? Umm... High school. Mel Sauve introduced us ^-^
22) How long have you known patience_mcgee? About three or four years.
23) How tall is mactabilis? Taller than me! I think 5'10"
24) Does andarta_86 do drugs? Not that I know of!
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26) When did you last call andarta_86? umm... last summer sometime?
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28) Thoughts on arctic_fox_yuki? sweet, fun, and hopelessly horny :P
29) Are patience_mcgee and mactabilis going steady? *glares*
30) One thing you can't stand about arctic_fox_yuki? Too damn shy! *smacks*
31) If arctic_fox_yuki had a superpower, what would it be? Ninja Tackle of DOOOOOM!
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37) How would andarta_86 conquer the world? Through psycology powers! Reverse psycology!
38) Does patience_mcgee have a crush on arctic_fox_yuki? Keep dreaming.
39) Would andarta_86 go out with patience_mcgee? Doubtful.
40) What do you disagree with mactabilis about? Almost everything :P But I love the man anyway ^-^

Been a while...

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 18:14:47 GMT

Hello all,

Just letting everyone who might be checking my page once in a while know that I'm still breathing.
A lot has happened since my last post... The main things would be:

- Long Distance relationship with Mike (Yup, we're still together!)

- Me and Shane weren't friends for a while. Big mistake on my part. But we've made up ^-^.

- I'm an Aunty now. My brother's son, Ozzy Charlie Denis Tambeau, was born at 11:36PM on February 13th 2006.

- I'm no longer going to wait until Marriage to have sex. Me and Mike will be lovers this summer vacation ^-^.

- I have a job at Teletech (Nextel Customer Care) and doing good there!

- Probably not going to graduate high school, but applying to La Cite Collegiale for next year anyway. (Might go for Mature Student Satus.).

- Got a new computer.... It ROCKS.

- Tried henna... it's pretty damn trippy.

- My cousin Andre got married to TJ in October and adopted her daughter as well. All is official now, they're one big happy family ^-^

- I'm 18 since September.. woop-tee-doo.

- I managed to fuck up a friendship with Brent. Stupid me for having an opinion on his girlfriend. *bangs head on desk*.

- Making plans to move in with Mike in July\August. Gunna live together in Gatineau ^-^.

- Went to Ottawa without my parents or any other adult dragging me around. Went to visit Mike and tour the college I want to go to. Also had a mini-interview type thing with the coordinator... he said I'm in as soon as I send my application. Don't know if that\ll be the case though, since I might not be graduating High School >.<

- Making a lot of new friends and aquaintances at Teletech... But also annoying the shit out of everyone on my team >.<

- Mike is coming home for Reading Week in March! *dances*

Well, I'd say that pretty much sums up the past few months... I'll likely be posting more in the near future. Got nothing else to do.

*group hugz everyone* Talk to ya'll later now!

...

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 02:40:47 GMT

I'm sorry if my last entry seemed alittle.. sappy. I'm feeling REALLY bitter-sweet right now. Very nearly brought myself to tears typing all of that up. And it's a little haphazard. I was just typing out my feelings as they hit me...

Time flies when life is good...

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 02:38:51 GMT

Prom in 16 days! I can't wait! Even though I'm not a good dancer and I usualy don't like crowds, I'm really looking forward to prom. Especialy the party I'm having afterwards ^-^ Just having my closest frieds over. The ones that I hold the best memories with... Like hanging out in the ag after exams playing soccer... And just laying in the shade of a tree near the school... Going out to movies and sleepovers. Good times and bad times. God.. I'm bringing myself to tears here... Cripe... I'm really REALLY gunna miss everyone. The teachers that were almost like friends... I'm especialy gunna miss my english class from this year. It was so fun. No one ever laughed at anyone out of spite. Any insults that were tossed about (and there were many!) were all in farce. I don't think there was ever a single time that we didn't have fun, even when working. Even the most distant aquaintances are going to be amiss.... I hate it when things end. I know i know... Finishing high school isn't really and "ending"... But it feels like it. Like I'm done one part of my life, and I'm never going to be able to go back. I have so many good memories, and so many regrets. But if I could go back, I probably wouldn't do things any different. I'd go through all the laughter and all the tears all over again because I know it will bring me here: The time in my life where I finish one story and begin a whole new one with the people that are so dear to me. I wish that I could just live these last few weeks forever. The bitter-sweet time of goodbyes and promises to see each other soon. The hugs and yearbook signings... God... I'm going to miss every little thing SO MUCH... I am forever going to cherish all my memories of the time spent at Ecole Secondaire Theriault. I hope to keep the friendships I have now throughout my life. I could never imagine being without the good times spent with Michael, Tina, Chantal, Brett, Brent, Paul, Couts... I Love You All SO MUCH! And for those whom I hardly ever speak to anymore... Vic, Katie, Shane, Kayla, Melissa, Renelle... the list goes on and on... Even though our friendship is no more, I still remember the time spent with you, and I'll keep it in my heart forever. I hope all of your dreams come true, that you live your life the way you imagined you would...

Thu, 26 May 2005 04:50:55 GMT

This is all I have to say for tonight. I had planned on a long entry... But I'm beyong knackered, have a headache and need sleep. Time: 12:51 AM. Not good. *dies*

Accomplishing things is fun ^-^

Sun, 15 May 2005 02:09:49 GMT

OMG! I made supper for my Family (And Michael) today... And it was SOOO good! I hardly ever cook, so I didn't really know that I could. But yeah, I made a "Cheesy Potato Bake", which turned out REALLY good *drools*. I made some fettuccine too, and the sauce was really creamy *licks lips* And I made up my own thing, too: Cooked chicken stuffed with a sautéed tomato mix. All in all, the whole supper turned out really well. Didn't get a single complaint! ^-^ *dances* I'm feeling SOOO good!

Yesterday was a very good day, too. For both Michael and I. We spent an entire day without so much as a misunderstood word, and we didn't fight at all. I went to his place after school until near seven-thirty. Then we went to Tina's and watched the first half of Van Helsing. Good Movie. Mike left somewhere around eleven. Me and Tina stayed up a bit, talking and such, but we went to bed early enough.
(Made this image on Photoshop while at Mike's)

(click to enlarge)

I had made plans with a new friend, Stephanie, to go to a showing of "Kingdom of Heaven" tomorrow, but I have to go to a bridal shower. Not that I mind too much, since it's my favorite cousin's shower. But I was looking forward to hanging out with Steph. Ah well, the long weekend is coming up, I suppose we can hang out then.

I painted a pretty black horse a few days ago. The mane, tail, eyes and hooves are gold. Plus I brushed up some of the paint to make it look old. Now it looks like an old handcrafted toy from the renaissance or something. It's really darling. The horse (well, foal really) is laying down and nuzzling a butterfly that's on it's rump.

I'm starting to get more into my book again. I hadn't really been working on it much lately. So much homework! *shakes a fist at Mr. Patry*

Well, I don't really have much else to write, So I'm going to sign off and go read or something.

*HoNeY oUt*

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Wed, 27 Apr 2005 16:05:53 GMT

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Yo-Yo!

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 00:28:18 GMT

Weeee! Michael bought me a Yo-Yo top today! Not one of those dumb lights and gixmo ones.. But a good wooden one! ^-^ I'm having so much fun with this thing. *yoyos* Me and Mike spent the day walking around the school Yo-yoing and annoying people. He's trying to bring Yo-yos back into fad. lol

Today was a weird day at school. "Prepare toi! Le Virus s'en vient!" (Get ready, the Virus is coming!). We basicaly spent the day HAVING to speak english. If we were caught talking French, we were sent to "jail" (a makeshit jail cell in the entrance hall of the school.). There weren't really any classes, aside from third course, but nobody really worked.

Well, I'm off. *yo-yoes...* WEEEEEEEEEE! .:HoNeY oUt:.

Just an update on me.

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 21:03:53 GMT

Hey all. I haven't really updated you guys on me lately... So I'm gunna now.

First off... The whole me and Michael issues are finished. We broke up, then had a very long talk (in person, for once), then decided to date again (then we made out, but that's a whole other story :P ). We get along a little better now... More like friends. I'm gunna try to be less bitchy and stuff... Hopefully, I can. Cuz it's even getting to ME!
Our parents don't know about us getting back together.. So nobody tell! Shhh!

We got a new assignment in Media Arts last week... And we HAVE to have a partner. So I went with Dan... He's completely obssessed with money! I swear to god! NASDAQ is his favorite website! Anyway... He hasn't helped out with the project at all. So far, all he's done is surf for stock and business updates, check his accounts and do law work. Then he apologizes for me doing all the work. Muurrrr... He's really nice and everything.. but jesus christ! How can anyone be so obssessed!?!? He contributed one thing: an idea that had absolutely NOTHING to do with the topic for the assignment. *dies* Somebody save me!

I got a really cool idea for art class today! I have a jungle themed artwork to do... So I chose to make a tree with jungle-type animals morphing out of it. For example, a branch sticking out, the tip of it is a snake's neck and head. I'm gunna use plain coloring pencils, but it's still gunna look AWESOME!

I started writing a song a few weeks ago, and now it's almost finished. It's kinda symbolic for me... I wrote it for Mike and Me. It's called White Falcon... I don't know why. The title just seemed fitting. I think I might write words for it. Something about a White Falcon. ^-^

I was kinda bitchy today. I don't really know why, but everything was getting on my nerves. One of my friends was talking during a presentation in the auditorium today, and it annoyed me so much that I moved a few rows away. Normaly, I would just have ignored them, or even joined in the conversation. I didn't want to be around anyone today. I even ate my lunch outside.. And it's freezing out there! I must be going socialy insane or something.... Oh well, I'll get more work done on my books that way.

Oh yeah! My book... I've decided to make it a trilogy: There are three main characters, so each book will concentrate on a certain character. I'd go into more detail about this, but I don't really want my story ideas out on the net.

I haven't been able to go back to Zellers yet. So chances of me getting a job there are like, 0%. This sucks. I can never get a ride anywhere, and (being unemployed and all) I have no money for the bus or taxi. I can't go plant my seeds of resume-ness anywhere. It's fucking retarded. I need to have a full time job sometime SOON!

Well, that's all I can think of to update on... So I shall fuck of and go work on my books or something. *salutes* .:HoNeY oUt:.

Got from wolf :P

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 17:29:10 GMT

x = yes
_ = no
o = maybe

WOULD YOU...
[ ] go out with me?
[ ] give me your number?
[ ] kiss me?
[ ] make out with me?
[ ] let me kiss you?
[ ] kiss back if I kissed you?
[ ] watch a movie with me?
[ ] go out drinking with me?
[ ] take me out to dinner?
[ ] drive me somewhere
[ ] dance with me?
[ ] take a shower with me?
[ ] tickle me?
[ ] have a fling with me?
[ ] buy me a drink?
[ ] take me home for the night?
[ ] would you let me sleep in your bed?
[ ] sing karaoke w/ me?
[ ] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[ ] hang out with me?
[ ] ask me out on a date?
[ ] let me take you out on a date?
[ ] give me a piggyback ride?
[ ] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere

DO YOU...
[ ] think im nice?
[ ] think im mean?
[ ] think im cute?
[ ] want to kiss me?
[ ] want to cuddle with me?
[ ] want to hook up with me?

ARE WE...
[ ] acquaintances?
[ ] friends?
[ ] in a relationship?
[ ] gonna have kids?

AM I...
[ ] smart?
[ ] funny?
[ ] cool?

HAVE YOU EVER...
[ ] thought about me?
[ ] thought there might be an "us"?
[ ] thought about hookin up with me?
[ ] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[ ] wished I were there?
[ ] wanted to be my boy/girl friend?

ARE YOU...
[ ] happy you know me?
[ ] telling the truth on all the questions?
[ ] mad at me?
[ ] thinking bout me?
[ ] going to repost this so that i will return the favor?
[ ] done with this survey?

GONE

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 14:08:49 GMT

I've got thinking to do and a life to pick up.

Don't call. Don't e-mail. Don't come near me lest I bite your head off.

Trendyness

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 17:44:15 GMT

Ask me four questions-- any four, no matter how personal, dirty, private, or absurd. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.

*bounces around* Come on! Gimme some good ones.

HOMEWORK OVERLOAD!!! HIT THE DECK!!!

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 22:36:11 GMT

OMFG... I'm So stressed out! I have like, four huge assignements due next week! It's insane!

1- Arts Visuels: Make an artistic representation of a social problem at school. I picked Teen Drinking. Due April 11th.

2- English: Write a two page Monologue that takes place during Death of a Salesman. Memorize it. Have to have costumes, props...the works. Due April 11th

3- English (AGAIN!) - Do an extensive research (with partners) on John Steinbeck and present it in front of the class. Must last 30 MINUTES! *dies* My part of the research: All of Steinbecks books. Reviews for the award winning ones. (He has 31 books! 14 Award Winners!). Due sometime next week. (April 14th? dunno)

4- Arts Meds: Thematic Photography. I have to take themed pictures and digitize them, screw around with them on the computer and then present them to the class. Due April 12th.

Then I have Da's birthday to worry about! It's on April 14th! *dies beyond death*

DIES

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 16:46:04 GMT

GAH! I was supposed to babysit this weekend, and would've made 20$ or so to spend on Da's birthday... But they called me at the last minute and told me they didn't need me to babysit anymore. *dies* Now I only have like, six bucks for his birthday. LIFE IS SOOO UNFAIR!!!

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I had a very boring weekend. Pretty much just spent my time in front of the TV playing FFX. Sounds fun, but playing a video game for two days gets lame. Bleah. By Sunday evening, I had a MASSIVE killer headache that kept me up until somewhere near 1 AM... I slept pretty well after that... But then my Stupid Cat woke me up at 5... Bitch. So here I am, tired as a dog after sex and I still have a headache. Adding to the pain: Mr. Patry is blasting HEAVY METAL rock in the classromm. *dies*

Honey is SO out.

Being Grounded Sucks. Period.

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 18:31:55 GMT

Hey all. Yes, I'm still grounded. Although I have the use of my Playstation back, and I'm allowed outside now. Not that going outside is a good thing... The whole yard is just one HUGE no man's land of wet clay and black mud. And I have no waterproof boots or anything. I can't wait till the snow is all gone and the dirt is dry. I swear, my yard looks like something from a FF game. All dark and icky. My shoe's have an inch worth of mud stuck to my shoes everyday (that is NOT an exageration!!!) and I have to scrape it off outside when I get to school so I can WALK without falling on my face.

Aaaanywho... I too have applied at Zellers (I was there first! *stabs snaps* lol). My friend's mum got me an application and said she'd put in a good word for me. She also said to keep on bugging the manager. lol. I hope I get hired, cuz I'm in desperate need of $Moneyz$. Da's birthday is coming up... :S

I'm becomming increasingly easy to aggravate. It might have something to do with the social seclusion, i don't know. I'm biting everybody's head off. I think even my mum if getting fed up with me being in her face all day. usualy, i'm either out or in my room. Now i'm either sitting in front of the TV or in the dinning room drawing at the table. Fun. I've come to realize just how much TV shows suck now. The only good thing on is Inuyasha and Kim Possible (Yes. Squeaker watches Kim Possible every morning whilst readying herself for school). Everything else is mostly sex this and reality that. *pukes and dies*

I got to working on my book again... Wrote a new half-chapter (about 10 book-pages worth). it isn't too bad, needs editing though. Battle scenes are hard to depict. Been drawing quite a bit, too. Drew some monsters (that I hope will be put in a MMORPG.) and some other stuff. Tried a new style of drawing a couple days ago... Didn't turn out too bad. Hillbilly with lots of weird features (big eyes and nose, kinda wrinkly...) but yeah, it ended up looking kinda cute... In a chibi way.

Me and Mike are getting along as usual: Putting up with each other's crap. But we're doing okay, still
love each other and still care. We aren't the world's most purr-fect couple, but we get along fine (when neither of us is in a bad mood ;).

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I'm in Media Arts class and dude... I'm so bored. I have this project to do... Take pictures and make a composition out of it. My theme is Nature. Nature... IN WINTER. Muuurrr... Maybe I should beg to get it changed to Love or something. lol. I could run around the school taking candid pics of couples smooching before classes. Muaha *runs around with a camera.*

HONEY OUT --> Gone to Weightlifting class. If I'm not back on here in a few days then whoever said a little exercise won't kill you LIED!